The Sling Diaries Volume VII Entry

I've followed the Sakura Bloom Sling Diaries for about three years now. Each volume depicts a families' growth over a 6 month period. "A real-time journal of their baby growing up in a sling" (Sakura Bloom). Reading their experiences has been inspiring.  So I saw they were taking auditions for the next volume, VII, and I thought what the hell, I'm gonna give it a try. So I did. Below is my entry on the topic Perception. Whether or not I'll be chosen, which I hope so badly that I will, I'm gonna document my own journey.  Challenge myself, be creative, and to one day sit back and re-read my entries with my little Freya. 

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I felt you. A little flutter. Then all those little kicks and turns.

I watched as my body grew and thought, "How can this be possible?" 

Month to month I waited. I documented my changes in order to never forget. 

I knew this would go all too fast. 

Are you a boy or are you a girl? Will you have curly hair or straight? 

How will it feel to finally touch you and cradle your delicate little body?  

All the typical mommy feels. 

Then you arrived. "It's a girl!" 

Ten toes. Ten fingers. And the cutest little Mongolian spots on your booty. 

I swaddle you in the only girly thing we bought and snapped your first of many pictures. 

Completely speechless. You took our breath away. 

This must be it. The feeling every mom was telling me about. 

The incomprehensible. The indescribable. 

That highest kind of love that only the tiniest of beings can bring about. 

You, my little Freya, have transformed me into a Mother. 

Because of you, I can feel myself changing into the person I am truly meant to be.

No career or occupation could ever make me feel as confident or accomplished as I feel in this new role.

I could never have imagined this for myself, and yet I now perceive myself truly as a mother, in its most honest and passionate form.

 I am complete. 

Time will be a thief to us in our journey through life. 

Every milestone will arrive, create new challenges, and be conquered sooner than the last.  

I promise to be there.  

Showing my support and giving you guidance, when you laugh and when you cry. 

But most importantly,

 I'll thank you every single day for making me a mother. 

Mom

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